My friend Deborah posted an article on Facebook saying that the coming full blood eclipsed moon would have many of us overwhelmed by emotions. I wrote, “Good grief! This, I don’t need!” Several people agreed with me. Today, however, I changed my mind. I think I do need just that! I need to be overwhelmed by my emotions. I think I need to sit in contemplation, with no distractions from my sorrow, my anger, my loss and my love. I think I need to dive in and swim in those emotions until I am so intimately familiar with them again and that I can sit with them in quiet comfort, like with an old friend. I need to get past the death of my Dad and brother to the lives that came before their illnesses and simply miss them.
Today I did that a little bit. I had no distractions and I remembered my Dad as he was before and I missed him and cried. It wasn't the flood but it was a start. Come on full moon, bring it on!